Guess what? It was 100% fine. I waited until the very end of the day, because I was nervous, and by the time 5:30 rolled around, I knew it was now or never. I literally said "well....Do or Die" to myself in the middle nervous chuckle while I was walking over. Explaining that I have been given this once-in-a-lifetime chance to do some good in the world really helped them understand.They are so excited for me! Yes, the extra attention is a little out-of-the-ordinary, but since then I have had the opportunity to answer a lot of questions about missionary work. If that seems scary, trust me that I thought it would be, but it really isn't. They are curious and interested (not to mention, totally jealous that I am going to Tahiti for a year and a half! haha!) about missionary work and what I will be doing.
The miracle is this... literally ONE MINUTE after I walked out of the office (immediately after giving notice at the end of the day) I checked my phone, and saw that I had received this:
"Hello Sister Bradshaw,
We received your photos. Thank you. We are looking forward to your arrival. Some ideas that may help. Cool comfortable shoes, most of the sisters wear sandals and or flip flops. I think you are going to the MTC at the best time. I would take one pair of simple closed toe shoes to wear at the MTC as required. Hiking sandals that are easy on and off are great. The custom here is to remove your shoes at the door. We do have some cars in the mission but plan on riding a bike. If you can find skirts that do not require a slip you will be much happier. Knee length or slightly longer is the best. The weather/seasons here are hot, hotter and rainy. Some of the sisters wear rain gear and some just get wet. Sister Bagerter (MIssion Nurse) suggest a good first aid kit. We did receive some neosporin ointment recently. But having some pepto bismal tablets, cold and flu gel tabs and any alleragy medications you may need. Bug spray. We have many mosquitos especially in the islands. The members feed the missionaries very well. Lots of FISH, fruits,vegetables, RICE, french bread and FISH oh did I say FISH yes lots of fish. Raw fIsh marinated in lemon juice and cocnut milk. Most all of the missionaries grow to love it, and request it for the meal at the mission home when they prepare to go home. I hope this does not scare you. THe people are wonderful, kind and generous. THey love to sing and dance. They have many activities. 1 Year ago we had only 43 missionaries by the middle of October this year we will have at least 115 missionaries. Currently we have sisters serving on Tahiti, Maupiti, and Raiatea. The President hopes to open additional islands soon. I hope this helps and if you need additional information let me know.
We look forward to seeing you in July.
Mission Office "
I have been assigned to the best mission on earth! I am so grateful for the change to serve these happy, gracious people and cannot wait to learn and live with them :) This woman is my angel!!!!
This was a great reminder to me that miracles happen when we act on faith. Oftentimes, nothing happens UNTIL we act. I know that as is often the case ,"you receive no witness until after the trail of your faith (Ether 12:6)."
It is important not to deny the fear, or ignore it, but instead work on strengthening your faith. When our faith is greater than our fears, we call that many things: Courage. Joy. Peace. Sometimes when that fear is very real, we just have to ACT. Feel the fear, and do it anyway. It is in the action that understanding and conviction arrives, and faith triumphs. I testify of this.
We must learn to take that step of forward, leaning on faith and trust in the Lord, especially in the darkness. Giving notice at work was that scary step into the darkness for me, and guess what? God protects and guides his children. I am alive and dandy :)